You see not that it was a game but there was no end game I always thought the end game was the marriage and that was never there for me. Whether that was my failure to give up smoking or be more vegan or not eat sweets I don’t know I will find out I guess. However Jesus already bore all my sin so I have no fear it is ,merely a transformation. I just worry that this thing was bigger than my dating woes and well the world isn’t in a great place it needs god it needs a wedding. Its not me though I’m last years model.
I just replayed a song “Never had a prayer” by the golden virgins. Sat with tears streaming down my face as I recalled Sian too shy to admit to putting this compilation together for me and me too shy and afraid of rejection to tell her how I felt. Thing is nobody really cares about that bit but in all the confusion the only thing I’m really certain about is that I really loved them. What a strange story this is.
By which I still do love them although I’m rubbish at showing it sometimes. I am not the boss and very much follow orders because I have faith that they are the best choices for mine and everybody’s lives. You’ll be ok though and I will “in the end” and that actually is the important thing. So for all those out there making much more of a difference than I ever have ,its great news don’t lose hope he sees everything and if you feel you’ve failed he knows you tried for the right reasons. If they weren’t the right reasons he might punish you a bit but he will give you another chance if you let him.
I believe Christopher Hitchens referred to him Christ as the fascist god but that has in no way been my experience quite the opposite.
It is a message of hope even if a bit nuanced continue to be kind to seek justice to do good and to seek Jesus and look after his creation and show his love for us because even if satan “wins” and destroys this earth as the bible says he may. You will be reborn into a new heaven and a new earth. So choose carefully who you seek and who you follow Jesus will save you.
So what does the bible say well it says the people will ignore gods warnings then there will be wars and the people will ignore his warnings and then there will be earthquakes and then famines and droughts and then pestilence and still they will ignore his warnings. As some ordinary bloke admittedly predestined to deliver this simple message its Gods creation take seriously what you are doing to it and then people going ok maybe we believe you then oh no you didn’t respond to that question in quite the way you should we don’t believe you anymore !!!! It’s a bit frustrating ! Also if you think I’m not as warm as I should be please bear in mind that I have spent the last 15 years thinking I may have condemned the world to hell because I didn’t sing a song at an open mic or give up smoking before some date while trying to make conversation about the great lives so and so’s kids are going to have. Look around you though and don’t ask me ask God he’s there he doesn’t just talk to me he wants to talk to everyone but make sure to ask the right one, Jesus is the way the truth and the life. I have no doubts and nothing to gain at least not in this world so….
What really baffles me is I’m trying my best here to try and stop a bad future for everybody and most of the world is trying to stop me !
You see if it was a choice is god on the side of the rebel alliance or the empire he most definitely would be with the rebels. However in fact Satan is on the side of the rebel alliance and the empire which is why….. you can see andor on the Disney plus channel. So which side is god on ? Maybe you should try asking him ?
Funny thing is if you took god out of it if you don’t change your behaviour you will end up in a world of pestilence and death anyway I don’t understand why everyones so afraid to speak with god they all will meet with him someday.
God bless